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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Mar 31, 2014 22:39:07 GMT -5
Gabe arrived at the meeting spot given by Sora about thirty minutes early. He probably looked crazy, pacing around the fountain, hands moving from his pockets to messing with his hair and back again. He kept looking around, looking for a certain head of multi-colored hair to pop up soon before he lost what nerves he had left. She was gonna show up, right? She should show up, Sora said that she would. The Kuma couldn't help but worry though, after the terms they'd left on and the events that followed Gabe was developing paranoia over the smallest things. He hoped that would pass soon, the nightmares were bad enough.
Oh crap, how was he going to explain disappearing for so long? Fei would probably want an explanation for that. Should he just tell her the truth, or would that just worry her? He couldn't lie to her, not after everything that had happened, but he was still having a hard time coping with it all himself.
He took a deep breath and messed with his hair for the millionth time, he just had to keep calm. Just… Just take whatever she says, get this whole thing sorted out, and if she DID ask… well he'd think of something. He hoped.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Mar 31, 2014 23:04:14 GMT -5
Fei wasn't normally one to be nervous, but the butterflies in her stomach were hard to ignored. They felt a lot more like a swarm of angry hornets at this point. She had fucked ever so perfectly with Gabe and then it had taken forever and a day for Sora to get in contact with him... Frankly the Tora was worried that he was avoiding her, seeing as doing so would be perfectly justified in her mind.
She tried to focus on other things as she made her way to the meeting spot, but her mind somehow wandered back to the same, fearful place. If she was this apprehensive already, how could she ever make this whole thing work? Had this all been a mistake? No, Sora was right. She was being stupid.
Fei stopped a few yards away from the fountain and sighed, burying her face in her hands. God, she was a mess.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Mar 31, 2014 23:17:10 GMT -5
Gabe's pacing stopped when he spotted Fei not too far off. Oh god, okay just calm down, breathe everything would be okay. Now just, should he walk to her, or let her finish the walk over to him, or what would be better? Well first he had to get his legs to start moving, that might help a little. The blond took a breath through his nose and exhaled through his mouth before moving to meet her half way. That'd be better than the standing awkwardly for her to come over, yeah.
Okay, step two: what in the hell was he supposed to say first? Dammit, and here he thought awkward conversations were done for with him and Toru on decent terms again. Once they were within talking distance Gabe rubbed the back of his neck and gave a small smile. "Glad you showed up." He decided to go with. No turning back now.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Apr 1, 2014 21:33:17 GMT -5
Fei matched Gabe's feeble smile. If there was one thing she was good at, it was masking her emotions with big grins and bad humor. Having a decent heart-to-heart was 't really her forte. Hence, she was more than a little worried about the outcome of this conversation.
The Tora chuckled a tad too lightheartedly and tucked some stray hair behind one ear. "Frankly," she replied, placing her hands upon her hips, "I'm surprised you wanted to talk to me at all." The true meaning behind her words floated through the air, unspoken: I'm probably more trouble than I'm worth. More than enough time had passed since they had spoken last for Fei to develope these sort of mounting anxieties.
Oh God, this had been an awful idea. But her window to run had already closed. Fei was trapped.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Apr 1, 2014 23:14:22 GMT -5
Gabe blinked, she… she really thought he didn't want to talk to her? He had let her go because he thought it was something that she wanted, although with him being gone for so long it would make sense her thinking that.
Well he had to say something to her. "'Course I wanted to talk to you." He tried, hoping that would do something. Really though, he wasn't too good at the whole 'feelings' thing. Couldn't blame him, he was raised by two men who were bigger assholes than himself, it was bound to rub off on him. Didn't mean he couldn't try though. "I," he cleared his throat. "I missed you." He hoped that sounded sincere enough, he really REALLY hoped it did, because it was true.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Apr 2, 2014 21:25:40 GMT -5
"I..." Fei paused. She could feel the imminent weight of the conversation settle over her shoulders like a leaden blanket. Fuck, she hated talking about feelings. Frankly, she hated HAVING feelings. Everything was so heavy that way. The Tora frowned slightly.
"If you missed me so much, why'd you just drop off the face of the Earth like that?"
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Apr 2, 2014 22:01:04 GMT -5
Fuck, there was the question he was hoping to avoid. Gabe frowned and looked down. He didn't… he didn't want to talk about it, he just wanted to forget. "I was…" he started slowly, hands starting to shake. He shoved them into his pockets and swallowed hard. "Something bad happened. I-I swear, it had nothing to do with you. I just needed some time off." He looked back at her, ready to expect the worst. That likely wasn't the kind of answer she wanted, but he was scared, and didn't know what else to say without spilling EVERYTHING and how guilty and sorry he was for messing everything up for EVERYONE and he-
Oh god he was a bigger mess than he thought.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Apr 2, 2014 22:23:06 GMT -5
Fei was caught somewhat off-guard by how shaken Gabe seemed. This wasn't normal, even by their standards. Her surprise showed a little as she tried to process a response. Eventually she simply let out a loud curse and sat down on the nearest bench.
"I'm sorry, I'm so shitty at talking when it actually matters." She put her face in her hands with a sigh. "You go first."
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Apr 2, 2014 22:39:36 GMT -5
Gabe took a seat beside her on the bench and held back a sigh. Neither of them were exactly in their element now where they? "Okay, umm," He started, trying to get his thoughts together. How was he suppose to start off anyhow?
Just, speak what comes to mind, maybe that'll do something. "Neither of us are really good with this sorta stuff, I get that," he sighed. "but I really do like you Fei, you know that by now right?" He ran his hand through his hair, uneasiness creeping into his stomach as more time went by. "And if what Sora told me was right, you like me too. So why not…" he moved his hand around awkwardly. "Why not give it a shot?" If she didn't want to at this point, then he could understand, but why show up today if that was the case? He wouldn't dare get his hopes up though, that hadn't worked out so well last time.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Apr 6, 2014 20:47:35 GMT -5
Fei tried her best to look Gabe in the eyes, but in the end she wound up looking away and placing one hand against her forehead. "I just don't want you to end up thinking that I'm more than you signed up for." She glanced feebly in the Kuma's direction. "You've only seen the best of it, trust me." Sure, she was a sparkly ball of sun shine the majority of the time, but when she crashed, she crashed HARD. Her behavior could spiral in either direction very quickly.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Apr 7, 2014 1:24:10 GMT -5
Through all the confusion and uneasiness building up inside him, Gabe managed a smile. "My dad was the world's biggest man whore when he was younger, my step dad is a trigger happy asshole from hell, and if the stories I've heard are true, my mother was an obsessive stalker that would have much rather had my dad over me any day." He gave a quiet laugh. "I've been around crazy all my life, whatever you're afraid of me seeing, I'm sure it's nothing I can't handle." Whatever it was, Gabe was sure they'd work through it.
He was, however, concerned about his own problems. What if he had another panic attack, what if she saw it? What if things got worse? He wasn't sure how, but knowing the luck his family had it could happen. He sighed and looked down at his lap. "Thing is, I've kinda got my own issues too." He admitted, somewhat reluctant. He wanted to tell her everything, he really did, but he just couldn't bring himself to talk about it yet. "Maybe we could help each other out?" He asked, turning his head back to face the Tora. He gave her another smile, hoping that maybe, just maybe, that this could work. Gabe was willing to try if Fei was.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Apr 12, 2014 22:51:38 GMT -5
Fei wanted to nod, but her nerves still held her back. She twisted her hands nervously, still unable to make eye contact. "I'm so bad at this," she sighed. "I seem so happy all the time, but I'm really fucking insecure. I'm going to be super clingy and maybe a little desperate and it's not going to be pretty." Her eyes misted over slightly. Shit, his was getting more enotional than she had been prepared for. "I'm scared of being alone and losing people, especially you. And once I let you in that's it. I'll never be able to let go. And I'm always going to be worrying that I'm going to slip up and ruin everything."
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Apr 12, 2014 23:12:31 GMT -5
…Well, he honestly couldn't say he saw that coming. Fei couldn't be THAT bad though, maybe at first, but that was okay. Gabe smiled and took one of her hands. "You won't ruin anything, I promise." He told her, hoping that he could get her to look at him. "I mean, there's gonna be fights, and we might not be able to stand each other sometimes, but that's all normal from what I've seen." He gave a small laugh at that. "But really, I think we'll be fine. Someone's gotta take me to more of those parties, right?" A little bit of teasing would probably make things easier given everything, he just wanted her to look at him at least.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Apr 12, 2014 23:45:10 GMT -5
Words escaped Fei at this point. She squeezed Gabe's hand, her eyes still locked with his. God, he was just so wonderful. Better than she deserved, really. An overwhelming urge to kiss him suddenly overcame her. But, should she...? Hell, she had nothing left to lose at this point. Fei grabbed Gabe firmly by the collar and pulled his mouth down to meet hers.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Apr 13, 2014 0:03:54 GMT -5
Gabe's eyes widened as he was pulled down to kiss her. He was frozen for a moment or so, it was his first REAL kiss, he wasn't exactly sure what to do. Finally he managed to push his awkwardness out the window and found it in him to kiss her back. Did- did this mean they were together now? That was the message he was getting, and he couldn't help but be excited because of it.
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