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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 15, 2014 21:52:14 GMT -5
The dreams always began the same way. A hand, much larger than her own, towed her down the sidewalk. She could barely see above the sea of people she was weaving through. She was confused, but happy.
Fei turned to look up at the face of the woman holding her hand, and then there was nothing but bangs and shouting about money and rough demands in words she could barely understand. She couldn't see anything but the thin slats of light that leaked in from above her. A closet, that's right, she was in some sort of closet. Safe... she was supposed to be safe here. The woman had put her here so no one would see her. If anyone saw her that would be bad. Very, very bad.
She stood, trying to see what was happening outside. And then there was an overwhelming smell, metallic and sickly. Fei recoiled and fell backwards as the air exploded with gunfire. There was a flash of blonde and then a flash of red. Her mouth opened up with a silent scream and she pressed her hands over her eyes. She didn't want to see this, she didn't want to see...
Fei shot upright, clawing to free herself from her blankets. Her eyes popped wide open, chest heaving, but she remained unaware of her surroundings. As far as her brain was concerned she was still surrounded by screams and gunfire.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Jan 15, 2014 22:01:03 GMT -5
Gabe had stayed up late with Fei in the lounge of the dorms again(it was starting to turn into a routine for them to hang out there until the sun came up). This time Fei had fallen asleep on the couch and the blond wasn't about to disturb her, so he nestled over to a chair that was beside her.
Right when he felt himself start to doze off, he heard sudden commotion beside him and jerked upright to check on the Tora. He blinked. "Fei..?" He asked, cautious because he didn't know how she'd react. She'd… she looked like she'd had a nightmare. "You okay?" He tried, still keeping his voice soft.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 15, 2014 22:12:13 GMT -5
Fei blindly swatted in the direction the voice had come from, still trapped in a state of confused panic. Only when the fog of sleep had truly lifted did the Tora realize who was talking. She turned towards Gabe, still taking a few irregular, gulping breaths as she did so.
"Gabe...? Oh shit, I didn't hit you did I?" The words themselves sounded like an attempt at humor, but her tone and face held anything but. Her eyes were still wide with a faint sort of trauma and her voice was just short of shaking.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Jan 15, 2014 22:30:08 GMT -5
Gabe caught Fei's hand gently. He shook his head. "No, it's fine." He said quickly to ease her worries. He'd never seen her like this, of course she'd been worried for him when he was in the hospital a while back, but this. This wasn't worry, she was scared.
"What's goin' on? Bad dream?" He asked as he put an arm around her. He really hoped she'd talk to him, he knew well enough when things were wrong and this was certainly one of those time.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 15, 2014 22:40:41 GMT -5
Fei swallowed and nodded hesitantly. "Yeah, a dream. Just a bad dream..." It sounded less like she was answering Gabe's question and more like she was trying to convince herself of that fact. She was awake, she was safe. There was no shouting or gunshots here. She had left that all behind a long time ago.
A sigh escaped the Tora and she tried her best to smile. It lasted for only a second before her lips quivered and fell, returning to their previous state of unease.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Jan 15, 2014 22:53:18 GMT -5
Gabe frowned a little and pulled her close. "Come on, you're okay." He told her softly as he started to stroke her hair. "Like you said, it's just a dream, you're fine and I'm right here." They were about as close to being 'together' as they could without using the actual term, so he hoped that would help.
He didn't like seeing Fei like this, it made him realize probably how much she had worried about him when he'd gotten himself landed in the hospital. It wasn't a good feeling, and he'd do his best to help her if he could.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 15, 2014 23:08:31 GMT -5
Fei found herself nodding again, this time more calmly than before. "Yeah, I know." She looked at Gabe, and then down at her lap. "They happen on occasion. Usually when I go to sleep I'm so exhausted or drunk I just black our but... Sometimes something just triggers them." The Tora twiddled her thumbs, looking almost embarrassed as she spoke. "It's just something I have to live with, I guess."
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Jan 15, 2014 23:20:34 GMT -5
"Well that sucks." He didn't mean for the statement to sound so blunt, but there it was. Instead of trying to apologize for it though he went on. "Have you, like, ever talked to someone about them?" He wanted to know what it was that had gotten the rainbow haired Tora so shaken up. "I'm here to listen you know."
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 16, 2014 18:18:13 GMT -5
"I've mentioned it to my parents. We all decided that medication probably wasn't worth it, seeing as they're normally so infrequent. Although I've had more than a few recently." She leaned into Gabe with a soft sigh. "I can never really see what's happening, but I always feel so scared. There's a lot of gunshots. And screaming, which is usually the worst part." Fei put a hand to her forehead. Her voice sounded impossibly tired. "They're just so vivid. I guess that's because I'm remembering things more than I am dreaming but..." She suppressed a shudder. "Doesn't make me any less scared while I'm having them."
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Jan 16, 2014 18:28:49 GMT -5
Gabe frowned a held her a little tighter. "Well you're up now and you're safe, that's all that matters." Remembering them? As in it had all happened before? That's right, he kept on forgetting she was adopted. Whatever happened to her before much have been pretty bad if it got her with a different family. He was grateful for that though, it was better with her being here no matter where she was before.
It made him wonder though. "…Where did it happen? If you don't mind be asking." He was curious, but if she didn't want to talk about it then he wouldn't pry.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 17, 2014 12:48:04 GMT -5
A feeling of ease washed over Fei as Gabe's grip tightened around her. She was still a little shaky, but having him here helped. Talking about it with him would probably help too. "Before I was adopted I lived in New Tokyo. I don't know how much you've heard about that place, but it's the exact opposite of a peaceful metropolis." Her gaze grew increasingly distant as she spoke. "I was only three when I was put up for adoption, so I don't really remember who my parents were. But most of the kids at the orphanage where the children of gangbangers and low-ranking mobsters, so that's my best guess... Especially considering what I do remember." She shuddered involuntarily.
"I guess it must of traumatized me or something, because I don't know anyone that has memories from before they were three. And I can remember almost everything expect my birth parent's faces."
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Jan 17, 2014 19:04:26 GMT -5
Gabe's eyes widened just a bit, but otherwise showed no physical reaction. New Tokyo again? What was up with hearing about that place lately, it sounded like hell.
The blond kept his secure hold around her, he wasn't really willing to let go yet. "I'm sorry." He said to her. While completely genuine sounding as it was, there were little good those words could do to help her any. "Is there, um," He sighed, he felt so stupid asking this. "Is there anything I can do? For now at least?" If it were memories and dreams that were the problem there wasn't much he could really do, but he HATED not being able to do anything, especially for her.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 18, 2014 0:01:46 GMT -5
Fei thought for a moment. If she wanted to, she could easily take advantage of this moment and convince Gabe to "distract" her, but she didn't really have the energy. She just... didn't want to be alone. The Tora wrapped her arms around her companion's neck and gazed up with an almost pleading expression. "Stay with me." She said it almost as a whisper.
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Post by Gabe Alabaster on Jan 18, 2014 1:09:02 GMT -5
Gabe smiled gently and he pushed her bangs out of the way to press a kiss to her forehead. He looked back down at her with both arms wrapped securely around her. "For as long as you want." He replied, almost in the same whisper. He didn't really want to be any louder at the moment, he just wanted to make sure Fei knew she was safe with him.
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Post by Fei Yen Takeda-Fujimoto on Jan 18, 2014 1:31:07 GMT -5
Fei smiled and thanked the Kuma with a kiss on the cheek. "I hope you're okay with my using you as a human pillow, in that case." She laughed, her normal smile finally making an appearance. She did sort of want to go back to sleep, but only if Gabe was there with her.
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